Renewal.

The title of this post is fitting in many ways.

1) I am renewing this blog. My goal of writing all the time and never lagging behind has been rapidly decreasing lately. Not cool. It's been an astoundingly pathetic 3 weeks (almost) since I've posted so much as an "I'm alive, don't worry" post and I'm beginning to think I'm letting you all down. Not like there's many of you, but the few who read, and the few who mean the world to me, I don't want to let you down. Because you're taking the time to read, so I should take the time to write. Today is Ash Wednesday, and although I'm not Catholic, I always set goals for myself for Lent. Just in case. This year, I'm giving up fried foods (while I'm at Purdue, at least), chocolate (unless it's in a homemade baked good, which could possibly come from Stella), all carbonated drinks, and talk shows (except Oprah, because, come on, it's the 25th season!). I'm also challenging myself to do more--like blog. Every day. 40 days. I'm praying God will help me with it.

2) I am renewing my soul---again. I don't know what there is to say about this, really. I am renewing that fire that God lit in me last month. Frankly, I don't care who I offend. I don't care who I make uncomfortable. I don't care who doesn't like it. This change was brought on by God. This change is in me and no one else. This change is not a mistake. And this change will not be undone. I'm living for one thing these days, and that is my awesome, awesome, God. If you have a problem with that, take it up with Him.

3) I am renewing the subject matter of this blog. Sort of. It's still going to be about my spiritual growth. I may stick a few random posts in, but mainly, the priority is still Him. But I'm done with Deep Dive 14. Partially by choice, partially not.  I had lagged way behind and I take accountability for that. If I would have focused and completed the devotional that I actually really liked, I wouldn't have ever had to get to the second part of why I'm done with it.  That reason is that the Bible app on my phone isn't working anymore.  I don't know why, but I'm really bummed.  For nothing else but the ability to look up scriptures all the time. Bottom line, I'm taking the blog post-by-post, letting God lead my thoughts.


All of that being said, I'm really getting down to business tomorrow. Next week is my spring break and I'm two papers away from freedom.  The blog will come after that, but I can't wait to get back into this. Maybe I'll just take the 40 days to talk about my trip to Ethiopia. It may take 40 days to explain it all. I've been putting it off because I just don't even know how to attack everything I want to say. We'll see how this goes.

Thanks for following me if you do, thanks for reading if you do, and thanks for commenting if you do. I check this thing a lot, even if I'm not actively posting. I'd love if you shared this because I love getting feedback.  I'm a firm believer that my relationship with God is really personal. But I need support, as well. It's our job as Christians to not only love one another, but support one another.

Wish me luck!

I love you....and God does too! :)