What's An Oreo Without The Icing?

Have you ever just felt confused and like no one can ever relate to you no matter what you say or how you say it? Like you're alone? Like you're empty? Like you're just floating in space, waiting for someone to care about you. Waiting for someone to care. Waiting for someone to listen, not just nod and smile. Waiting to be heard. Waiting to be felt.

Yeah; me too.

Here's the thing- we're never, never, never alone. How great is that? I mean, really. Think about it. Think about the fact that there is always someone there for you. That there will always be a listener. And you know the greatest part? He can't even nod and smile- because you can't even see Him. He's all ears. How awesome is that?

God made us all pretty unique. But he is in every single cell comprising every little bit of who we are. Want proof? Try to stick with me for a minute.

I'm not biologist. By any scheme of my imagination. In fact, I haven't touched anything related to biology in three years. But I get this. Okay....so there's this thing called Laminin. It's this protein necessary in human (and most mammal) life. It hold us together. Did you not read that right? It holds us together. It's the glue in our paper mache make up. It's the icing on the Oreo. It's the grout in the tile. Our cells wouldn't stick together without it. We wouldn't survive without the millions of tiny, little Laminin in our bodies.

Maybe you'll learn better from visuals. I'm learning about educational philosophy in one of my classes, so I'll be generous, I'll put a picture of Laminin on here so you can see it. So you can picture it. I'll even put two pictures!

Are you seeing this right now?! This is what holds us together! I guess the Bible doesn't lie: "He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together."-Colossians 1:17

I just don't understand how people don't get this. God is always there for you! Even when you feel like no one else is. Cling to him. Because He is clinging to you. Literally. Let Him hold you together. Because he is holding you together. Literally. I've been low before, I've felt this emptiness, this blank feeling that I can't even think of things to fill with. So I've tried, I've added things to my life just because I think they'll work. Nope. God works. Really works. Turn to Him. 

Let Him rescue you. 

Love you! 

Renewal.

The title of this post is fitting in many ways.

1) I am renewing this blog. My goal of writing all the time and never lagging behind has been rapidly decreasing lately. Not cool. It's been an astoundingly pathetic 3 weeks (almost) since I've posted so much as an "I'm alive, don't worry" post and I'm beginning to think I'm letting you all down. Not like there's many of you, but the few who read, and the few who mean the world to me, I don't want to let you down. Because you're taking the time to read, so I should take the time to write. Today is Ash Wednesday, and although I'm not Catholic, I always set goals for myself for Lent. Just in case. This year, I'm giving up fried foods (while I'm at Purdue, at least), chocolate (unless it's in a homemade baked good, which could possibly come from Stella), all carbonated drinks, and talk shows (except Oprah, because, come on, it's the 25th season!). I'm also challenging myself to do more--like blog. Every day. 40 days. I'm praying God will help me with it.

2) I am renewing my soul---again. I don't know what there is to say about this, really. I am renewing that fire that God lit in me last month. Frankly, I don't care who I offend. I don't care who I make uncomfortable. I don't care who doesn't like it. This change was brought on by God. This change is in me and no one else. This change is not a mistake. And this change will not be undone. I'm living for one thing these days, and that is my awesome, awesome, God. If you have a problem with that, take it up with Him.

3) I am renewing the subject matter of this blog. Sort of. It's still going to be about my spiritual growth. I may stick a few random posts in, but mainly, the priority is still Him. But I'm done with Deep Dive 14. Partially by choice, partially not.  I had lagged way behind and I take accountability for that. If I would have focused and completed the devotional that I actually really liked, I wouldn't have ever had to get to the second part of why I'm done with it.  That reason is that the Bible app on my phone isn't working anymore.  I don't know why, but I'm really bummed.  For nothing else but the ability to look up scriptures all the time. Bottom line, I'm taking the blog post-by-post, letting God lead my thoughts.


All of that being said, I'm really getting down to business tomorrow. Next week is my spring break and I'm two papers away from freedom.  The blog will come after that, but I can't wait to get back into this. Maybe I'll just take the 40 days to talk about my trip to Ethiopia. It may take 40 days to explain it all. I've been putting it off because I just don't even know how to attack everything I want to say. We'll see how this goes.

Thanks for following me if you do, thanks for reading if you do, and thanks for commenting if you do. I check this thing a lot, even if I'm not actively posting. I'd love if you shared this because I love getting feedback.  I'm a firm believer that my relationship with God is really personal. But I need support, as well. It's our job as Christians to not only love one another, but support one another.

Wish me luck!

I love you....and God does too! :)